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| INTP - "Architect". Greatest precision in thought and language. Can readily discern contradictions and inconsistencies. The world exists primarily to be understood. 3.3% of total population. |
i need to stretch my brain.
i’ve been hanging out with Adrian all week, and while that’s nice, I feel….sluggish, mentally. Also, I’m getting BORED easily, and tired far more easily. Not enough introverted thought, well, focused introverted thought. I’m always thinking, but I haven’t really delved into any challenging intellectual material deeply this past week, and as a result, I feel off kilter. My days have been work (which is the opposite of stimulating, and just drains me by exploiting my Fe) and then I come home to make dinner and hang out with Adrian and go to sleep to wake up for work again. Adrian and I talk a lot, and it is deep, but it’s usually not strongly theoretical, I guess.
Blah. I need to get out of this rut. Does this ever happen to any other INTPs? Hanging out with someone you like all the time, and not realizing that you’re drained until you get a moment to analyze yourself and conclude that your mental processes, and even external life (sensory tasks, sleeping schedule, speech patterns), are suffering?
Sucks. I wish the library was open or something. I need to break this monotony and catalyze change. Maybe I’ll write. I feel too scattered to just pick a topic to research or even read. Ick. Blah. BOOOO.
adrian hasn’t talked to me for almost a week.
he’s mad at me, but can’t believe that i don’t know why. :( ughhh. i really don’t know why he’s upset.
i just went in his room and essentially begged him to tell me what was wrong, and he wouldn’t. he just said that he wanted to be left alone and that he didn’t know when he’d be ready to speak to me again. so it must be something big, he usually isn’t like this, but i can’t think of anything.
how am i supposed to know what’s wrong if you don’t tell me? also, i hate fighting. i’m terrible at it, and the only thing that breaks my heart is when people i love are hurt and i can’t help.
ugh. i want to cry. this is a stupid post and i’ll probably delete it, but i hate being an intp sometimes. i understand everything, and nothing, at the same time.
lol @ dad’s facebook status. INTPing hard over here.
lol. everyone is telling this guy to leave the group and i’m just like “welp, he has a point”.
i hate when adrian tries to “get me going” on things when i’ve already mapped out in my head how i’m going to spend my day and the most efficient ways to go about my productivity. he especially likes to try and schedule me when he’s in a bad mood. it’s annoying. i don’t like when people are in bad moods, it puts me on edge. i really hate disharmony. i get very quiet and awkward around angry people. but i especially hate being told what to do. these situations always put me in an interesting limbo of being scared to upset him and being mad that someone is trying to tell me what to do.
anyways. he’s like that today. so he’s texting me telling me i need to get started on my day blah blah blah. when i’ve already mapped out the best way to do everything. he doesn’t understand that if i’m not doing anything now that doesn’t mean i don’t have plans to do it. he sees sitting around as laziness, when really i’m just efficient. my entire day is mapped out and doing things out of succession when they’d be easier to do slightly later, around other scheduled activities, and in proper order is just stupid. so then because i don’t want him to get mad i attempt to explain this and he thinks it’s an excuse. so then i’m pissed because he shouldn’t be telling me what to do in the first place, especially when i’ve already planned to do these things, and he’s upset because he was ALREADY in a bad mood and now he feels like i’m not being perfect, thus furthering his frustration. also, trying to explain things like this to him is futile. blah!
A.NNOY.ING
such is the life of an intp
and put in as her facebook status.
UGHHHH.
Introvert problems. I don’t like information released until I release it, and I like to do it slowly. I know I should be glad, because I know she’s happy I found something, but that makes me really upset. I feel violated.
The problem with being an INTP with an ESFP mother. O__O
LOGIC.
they know how to do it, and if they’ve matured, they know how to do it WELL.
I would not be capable of having a relationship with a dominant feeler if he didn’t view things objectively and understand, and appreciate, my point of view.
Objectivity might not be his first inclination, but when he cools down he listens, understands me, and he can take a step back to solve a problem while putting his personal feelings on hold. While I know part of this is due to his deep care for me (which I even more appreciate), really implementing that objectivity to our subjective feelings makes both of us work harder, and smarter, towards the greater good - a healthier, and happier, relationship. It is so so so refreshing, and I love it.
The end.
